day 4

day 4 - What do you think it means to be in love?

being in love is frustratingly simple, too complicated, and a mess of contradictions. it's a feeling of soaring happiness that makes you feel like you're radiating more than the sun and about to overload with emotion, or it's the feeling of absolute contentment and peace with the world, because being in love just makes everything in the world good. but it can also be a feeling of abject loneliness, making you feel small inside, with a weight that tears too much on your heart and a restless mind, because you've learned what incompleteness feels like in their absence. it means a thousand different things that are different to every person, because each person falls in love differently, but when they're in love, the feeling is the same. it's a little bit of insanity, because i think you have to give up a little bit of reality to be in love, to linger in that half-world of daydreaming. i don't think you can know completely how or why you are in love, though. you can know some of the reasons why, and things that add to it, and how you started falling in love, - because that's easy enough to reason out, but the complete whole? i don't think so.  i think there's something you just can't explain about why you're in love,  because when you're in love, while you can count those reasons or things, what keeps you in love is for them filling in the spaces in between those singular reasons or things with who they are just as much, and other people could do the same things for you and it would feel wrong.

i guess being in love, at least for me, makes me think of being in perfect harmony - with even supposedly discordant notes feeling "right" when taken in context with everything else.