day 9

day 9 - where do you see yourself in 10 years?

in ten years....i'm not sure. i know where i want to be in ten years, but as a twenty-year old, looking out onto the future of jobs and work and family and mortgages and most importantly, responsibilities - it terrifies me, and i'm not sure i want to think about it in anything more than the abstract.

what do i want to be at though? i guess - i want to be up to a relatively high-medium level as a planner, either in the planning or transportation departments of the state or county, but specializing in transit. or maybe working at the dot, who knows. i want to have bought my first house, and i guess i'd hope to be happily wed and maybe with a mini-me or a mini-him on the way or a year or two old. but who knows ? ten years is a long time, and even in the past year or three i've changed, although...i guess three years ago, i would have still said the same thing.

but i'm more afraid to think about it nowadays because it seems like i'm starting to walk in the direction that i want my life to take, and i'm liking it so far, and i want to not overplan, not get overeager, and not try to force things down a path too early and just enjoy life as it comes, rather than doing what i do with books and reading the ending before i've even gotten through a fourth of the book, because...it's more enjoyable and surprising this way.