I don't think I realized how much I love you until Friday night when we were drifting off to sleep cuddling and every single bit of stress left with happy in its place. It's weird to think that its been almost ten months now, since it still feels like yesterday and forever, but I'm happy, which is why I think I don't write too much anymore.

I think I believe you and us now when you tell me we'll make it through for sure. Hopefully it all works like we planned (mostly), hopefully. And yes, I miss you already. And thank god you have no idea where this is or I would pretend I never wrote that. And of course I never tell you these things...which is a big fat lie. But you don't know that.