you can't wait for happiness to come to you, you have to seize it with both hands and run with it. i've got a good feeling about what i'm doing - and i think i'm finally settling into my skin. strange how i've tried to change so much, yet changed so little. it'll work out this time. i've got a good feeling about it. because for someone so cynical, i do believe in fate, karma, and all that jazz, with serendipity and luck tied in. and whoever seems to be weaving the big scheme of things up there seems to be making a pattern that i like :)

okay i admit it, i'm a sucker for romantic stories that end in angst at the end. they're heartwrenching! saddening! and end in a lot of fanfics! and make me feel better about myself! (until i hit myself over the head with reality and realize actaully, no i don't want to date anyone i know because they all are eunuchs, slimy, or lol'able.) sorrry <3. but i do like my best friends a lot when they send me long emails and after i come home from work i'm like YAYYY! the rest of my friends send me garbled plans for random stuff that i just blink at like crazy.

p.s. see ratatouille.
pps i think i'm on a sugar high

college is rolling around the corner and i really don't want to start on my apps, but i've got so much resting on it. maybe it's that ridiculous personality quirk that i've been trying to suppress that says "Hey! I NEED TO PROVE MYSELF!" - well, prove that i'm not stupid. which i'm not, i just suffer from a surplus of laziness that knows no bounds.

while i'm on the horse, and SOME OTHER KID TAKES IT.and i went on the merry-go-round yesterday - and i was SECOND IN LINE . and the kid in front of me TAKES THE DRAGON. AGAIN. and then she gets OFF of the dragon. mommah, i wanna be on the dragon. it's not fair, wah wah wah. *sarcasm marks*

rambling again. onto different topics! so, junior year is over, and i'm now a senior. california in august, which i'm looking forward to, even if interning at the smithsonian is fun.

three second summary:
i like my job.
i like long emails.
i like my best friends.
i like my life, mostly.
i like calvin and hobbes.
so, i am a simple person with complex tastes. (and thoughts.)